Why Should I Care, You Do…
Posted: April 21, 2011 Filed under: Uncategorized
Many times I have wondered how I got myself in so much trouble back in the drinking days. I really didn’t care what you thought about me at all. I let you do all the caring. One of my practices was distortion of truth. I would lie to get myself out of trouble or embellish stories or just right out lie to get my way. I would pretend to know something when I didn’t. I didn’t want to appear stupid. If I didn’t understand a word ‘s meaning, I would just smile and pretend I knew. I felt lost and ashamed a lot of times.This behavior went on for many years. I didn’t really understand why I felt so bad about myself until I got sober and did a 4th step and took a good look at me. Yikes!! what a monster I had created. Mainly to get myself out of trouble or avoid confrontation. I really began to care about how I felt about myself. It made sense to give myself a chance to practice healthy behavior. Just decent honesty with myself and others has made a huge difference.The difference today is I don’t care how stupid I look to others. Today I care about standing in the light of truth, even if it sucks to be honest.
- How can you tell if an alcoholic is lying? If his lips are moving
- Step 9 Made direct amends to such people wherever possible, except when to do so would injure them or others.
Oh, it’s a strange day
In such a lonely way
I saw some children dance
I watched my life in a trance
And the people around me
Seemed so glad to be here
Will my time pass so slowly
On the day that I fear?
And the noise that surrounds me
Pulls so loud in my head
from the promise that healed us