Walk On The Wild Side

R.I.P. Loui Reed


New Year Bliss

Around summer, I felt the incredible simplicity of Houston and just basic southern living. It was way hot due to the lack of rain and we had to slow way down to function. Known as the city of “fronts, Houston gets the backlash of whatever weather is going on around us. So last summer, we caught a desert fire wind for a few months which has now passed into this amazing winter.

Our winters are mild here in Houston. We have sun almost every day with a cool crispness most would call Fall. It is gorgeous and what I call “Soft.”

The much needed rain falls and we are grateful.

How fortunate we are to live in this laid back city that feels that easy energy! In the winter, we can run every day, be outside in the sun and our energy bills go way down, because we don’t use the air conditioners or much heat.

I am 22 years sober today. I am so grateful for my Higher Power, for my life, my sobriety, Alcoholics Anonymous, the people of Alcoholic Anonymous, my experiences, my successes, my losses, my soul mates, my friends, my enemies, my co-workers, my pets, my family, my work, my health, my creative work, the every day routine of my work, the trials of my life and the incredible miracles of my life. For the peace I feel that no matter what happens I am never alone, never abandoned and I will always land on my feet as long as I stay aligned with the will of my Higher Power.

I am grateful for my sobriety so I can experience ALL of my feelings, for my time alone, for my time together, for being able to be present at the deaths I have experienced, to be present for my loved ones who suffered great loss, to be present for my pets when I needed to put them to sleep, for all the hardest aspects of my life, because that is what has made me so much stronger and alive to know the truth and to face what is real.
I don’t always get what I want, but I get what I need. And I just want to say, “Thank you to all.”
The good, healthy experiences are so welcomed and so appreciated, but most of all I want to thank my struggles, my illnesses, the things and situations I hate, any one who acts as an enemy to me, lied to me and every asshole that ever pissed me off in any way in my life, in my personal life or just even traffic or tried to stand in the way of righteous life for me.
You negative, evil forces are all my most beneficial experiences, because you are the reason I am successful.
So Thank you and God Bless. I pray you all get what you deserve and have amazing spiritual growth this year.

“Love is a madness; if thwarted it develops fast.

Mark Twain

And to everyone and everything else, I say Follow me! I have a clear flag. We can print any thing we want on it. Our journey will be sobriety, love, truth, sanity and a solid one foot in front of the other movement forward with a Higher Power who knows what is best for us. One day at a time in truth, justice, energy  and reality and not just sitting in front of our computers or televisions wishing we had a life.
Let’s GO FOR IT!!!  Rip It Up and Start Again
Happy Blissful New Year
“The New Year”

So this is the new year.
And i don’t feel any different.
The clanking of crystal
Explosions off in the distance
So this is the new year
And I have no resolutions
For self assigned penance
For problems with easy solutions
So everybody put your best suit or dress on
Let’s make believe that we are wealthy for just this once
Lighting firecrackers off on the front lawn
As thirty dialogs bleed into one
I wish the world was flat like the old days
Then i could travel just by folding a map
No more airplanes, or speed trains, or freeways
There’d be no distance that could hold us back.
There’d be no distance that could hold us back.

HOT Original Nature

Patti Davis, Ronald Reagan’s daughter, got clean and  sober and changed her life in her late twenties. She is a person who has lived her life with out being told who she should be.

Will Patti be on her death bed asking, “What if my whole life was wrong?” Tolstoy

Beautiful Patti at 58











Patti on Amy Winehouse

“When I eventually quit — after many years — it was for the simplest, most childlike reason: my father had taught me to trust God, and I didn’t want to disappoint Him. I didn’t want God to be angry with me.”

Patti Davis


Some days are just so perfect. Laughter, love, creativity, all the little joys of life. Staying in the moment, because we know these days end and right “now” is all we have. Perfection isn’t a diamond ring or tons of roses or your boss giving you a raise or your kid graduating. It is the process of how we got we there and being on that wave crest of gratitude and joy for that second in time. The stumbles, the blockages, the pain of trudging the road of happy destiny is all about the perfect moment.

Our tendency is to focus on the negative. Reading the news and the gossip will send us over the edge. We grumble like pirates at anything we don’t agree with. We hang onto our out-dated beliefs, relationships, ideas and situations that don’t work any more.

Loads of broken junk fill our lives.

It’s hard to stop the habits of disappointment and fear. We want to hurt and punish those we “love” (what kind of love is that?), get revenge on the cashier at the grocery store who was rude to us, whatever, whoever hasn’t been perfect in our lives must pay.

So, how does this relate to being sober? We think perfection is about acceptance, the Third step. Being where we are right now and accepting it.

We can’t control it. We didn’t cause it and we can’t cure it.

But then, there are those “perfect” days when, who cares!? We are happy right now…in the mess of life.

DJ Shadow

Midnight in a Perfect World

T’is fat…

Insight, foresight, moresight,
The clock on the wall reads a quarter past midnight

You came into the garden of mine, ahh…
Life came seeking for love, for love

Midnight, midnight, midnight, midnight

By darker falls
The midnight rush
You came into the garden of mine, ahh…
Life came seeking for love, for love

Go To Any Lengths

Girlfriend Struggled With Sobriety While Chaz Bono Began Sex Change Procedure


I saw this film last week and was amazed by Chaz’s bravery and openness. When Chaz’s girlfriend drank during the time of his breast augmentation, he said she used her stress at school and his sex transition as an excuse to drink. Chaz distanced himself from his girlfriend to protect his sobriety. They made it through a very tough time and now both are sober.

In our program, we become willing to go to any lengths to stay sober.

Not a great movie, but I found it interesting due to their struggle of addiction and approach to Chaz’s sex transition with honesty and grace.

Becoming Chaz



We practice stillness for a short time every day, thanking our Higher Power and writing and listening. This helps us center. Keeps us in balance. Even when it feels like the world is coming to an end, our connection to our Higher Power always brings us back to faith.

I sometimes forget how I was brought back from dead 21 years ago. My life was spared. I want to be useful to the world. I have had incredible psychic experiences that cannot be explained other than of a spiritual nature.

Direct Contact.

So why do I forget and doubt?

Be Here NOW

Look to this day
This very life of life
In its brief course lie all
The realities and verities of existence
The bliss of growth
The splendor of action
the glory of power–

For yesterday is but a dream
And tomorrow is only a vision
But today, well lived
Makes every yesterday a dream of happiness
and every tomorrow a vision of hope.

Look well, therefore to this day


We helped a baby Cardinal back into its nest this morning. Mother and Father red bird squawking closely by.

Great way to start Mother’s day. I am so grateful for my mother and my family.

Beautiful day in the sun.

So, I am thinking about how this relates to AA, sobriety, the steps and for me it is just about being in the moment, about not complaining and about seeing all the wonderful gifts we have.

Leonard Cohen

Bird on a Wire 1968

Like a bird on the wire
Like a drunk in a midnight choir
I have tried in my way to be free

Like a worm on a hook
Like a knight from some old-fashioned book
I have saved all my ribbons for thee

If I, if I have been unkind
I hope that you can just let it go by
If I, if I have been untrue
I hope you know it was never to you

Oh, like a baby, stillborn
Like a beast with his horn
I have torn everyone who reached out for me
But I swear by this song
And by all that I have done wrong
I will make it all up to thee

I saw a beggar leaning on his wooden crutch
He said to me, “You must not ask for so much”
And a pretty woman leaning in her darkened door
She cried to me, “Hey, why not ask for more?”

Oh, like a bird on the wire
Like a drunk in a midnight choir
I have tried in my way to be free

Emotional Independence

No one can make you happy. Happiness is a choice.
Our purpose is to stay sober and help others.

Anything else is lagniappe, a little sumpin” extra.

“Happiness is overrated.”
The point isn’t always to feel happy, the point is to feel and be alive in our skin.

Don’t get too taken in by the good times.

Don’t get too taken in by the bad times.

No Pressure, No diamonds.

“Rejoice when you suffer, for you are being perfected for a calling.”

Is this some shite or what..??
Pain sucks!

Perhaps our calling is to be an example of sobriety. Our calling, may be to be, an example of honesty or bravery or taking control of our lives and not allowing anyone to use us or control us or treat us like doormats.

 Photo by F.Carter Smith

Is pain growth?
People and situations who have given us the worst disappointments in life have been our greatest teachers. They are who teach us what we don’t want in our lives or in our relationships.

Fuck those assholes!

I say, “Stick with the winners. Don’t settle on second best or being second best and above all, don’t lose our voices, our independence, ourselves by being a doormat for others to walk on.”

What is the pay off of being dependent on others to make us happy?

What is the cost of trying to make every one around us happy?

It is not up to us to “make” others happy. Being happy is a personal choice.

Being able to control other’s happiness is illusion…

If we never want any thing, if we  just settle and not feel anything, we may “think” we are happy or wait around until some else “makes” us happy, if we never risk change, we never get to grow and really feel and experience what life has to offer, good or bad. Now that’s a choice. We ain’t amoebas baby.

Hey, getting out of bed every day is risky

There’s a big world out there, a lot of choices, if we can overcome fear and get out there and live.

Doormat by Robert Borden (This little guy has a lot of wisdom)